MILES AWAY from heaven

Yeah
Ye-ye-yo-yo-woah
I talk my shit
Yeah, I know depression, I met her and fell in love
Fuck a hug, I found a best friend with the drugs
Hopefully this pill'll turn me back to person that I was
'Cause honestly, I'd rather go to Xanny bars than to a club
The only one who really loves me is the plug
Otherwise, he wouldn't treat me like he does, stupid, of course I'll be judged
But the hate feels so much better than the love
I only wanna see my daughters when I'm buzzed, let me sip this drink
Happiness cheated on me, I got attached to lonely
No I ain't crazy, I hate that you put that jacket on me
An Od would be a blessin', I swear
If God decide to take me now, make sure his angels prepare
To carry my heavy soul to where it's about to go
Feel like I already know, it ain't heaven fa'sho
Who cares? I need my fix, and don't nobody care I exist
I go to rehab 'cause you asked, but that don't mean I'ma quit
Death gotta be a block party
'Cause life is hard (life is hard, life is hard)
A psych ward in my bedroom
Not so far (not so far)
Wish heaven was a mile away (was a mile away)
Wish heaven was a mile away (a mile away)
Wish heaven was a mile away (hey)
I'd fill my tank
And leave this place forever
Look
I got stranded with regrets, I'm not invested in the steps (ever)
Can't be eleven of 'em left, it's no blanket for the sweats
Is you gon' hold me when I ache, and tell me everything's okay before I break?
So why the fuck would you just leave me in this place?
I gotta laugh to stop from cryin', overthinkin' when I'm silent
Shoulda died and made you perfect, that would numb all of my problems
Anxiety through the roof, and my dogs can't help me
In school, I would suppress the pain, but I always felt it
Need an electrician, my light is the dimmest, not the best swimmer
Adolescent years, I fished for attention, I'm bad for bidness
Suicide playin' out in my mental, I'm tired of livin'
You would only understand if you were me for just a minute
Sometimes I sit in my car with the radio off
Tryna listen to the sound of my heart
I've digested all the lessons that society taught
Wish I could hold it all together, but I'm fallin' apart
Death gotta be a block party
'Cause life is hard (life is hard, life is hard)
A psych ward in my bedroom
Not so far (not so far)
Wish heaven was a mile away (was a mile away)
Wish heaven was a mile away (a mile away)
Wish heaven was a mile away (hey)
I'd fill my tank
And leave this place forever
(Ever) ever
(Ever, and ever, to never, and ever)
And I know death gotta be easy 'cause life is hard
(Save me) death gotta be easy 'cause life is hard
(Save me) death gotta be easy 'cause life is hard
(Save me) death gotta be easy 'cause life is-