Trauma

Weighed down by the trauma, can't escape the past
A slave to the brain of a broken man
The pain that I face every day is masked
So I just say that I'm fine every time they ask
It drives me insane, up and down the roads
The place where I find my faith and hope
To one day face my broken soul
And find a way to regain my strength and cope
I know my life would be different, but I don't wanna relive it
Because it made me who I am today, uh
I wear my trauma like badges, they're complex, overdramatic
And always scream and have somethin' to say, uh
I'm only human, there's evil inside
Buried beneath, and the irony is that I always pray, uh
To meet my demons and bring 'em to light
Look 'em straight dead in the eye and tell 'em I am not afraid
If it's do or die, I'm ready (I'm ready)
Defeated suicide, and God helped me (helped me)
Put my pain on ice (ice), break these trauma ties (ties)
Escape the cage that I made for myself 'cause I'm
Weighed down by the trauma, can't escape the past (escape the past)
A slave to the brain of a broken man (a slave to)
The pain that I face every day is masked
So I just say that I'm fine every time they ask
It drives me insane, up and down the roads
The place where I find my faith and hope
To one day face my broken soul
And find a way to regain my strength and cope
There ain't no recipe for fixin' me, don't waste your time (time)
I value nothin' but my energy and peace of mind (mind)
I'm trigger-happy 'cause of all the times they've ever lied (lied)
I know when they see me, all they really see is dollar signs
They talkin' it, I'm walkin' it (ay), my trauma needs no audience
Address the pain I've closeted (pain), pinpoint its date of origin
It's not a fair fight (fight), and when I close my eyes (eyes)
I see the devil tryna pull me to the other side
This post-traumatic stress and rage that I battle every day
Feeds off alcohol and drugs, all they do is numb the pain
At this speed, I just might crash, escapin' from my past
I'm slowin' down to face it, and I'm takin' my life back
Weighed down by the trauma, can't escape the past (trauma, trauma, trauma, the past)
A slave to the brain of a broken man (a slave to)
The pain that I face every day is masked (trauma, trauma, trauma)
So I just say that I'm fine every time they ask (a slave to)
It drives me insane, up and down the roads (trauma, trauma, trauma, oh)
The place where I find my faith and hope (a slave to)
To one day face my broken soul (trauma, trauma, trauma)
And find a way to regain my strength and cope (trauma, trauma, trauma)