Almost close

How are you now?
Have you been sleeping?
Have you been eating
At the places we used to?
I wish I could show you everything that I can't show you
How does she smell, my love?
Do you miss my Chanel, my love?
I moved to the city
To try and find another thing that could've been living to me
Our showing ended
But I couldn't watch yours still reeling without me
As I'm watching you
Be a different two
I'll never be the same
Did you even know my middle name?
How could I have not known
It would've ended in
Almost close
Almost close
And when the curtains draw
And I'm going home
I think I kind of always knew you never really loved me
Almost close
Almost close
Remember I told you I was gonna die if we ever ended in almost close?
Almost close
Well, I'm here now on the freeway to who knows where
Lost in places, lost in things, trying to find a place that doesn't remind me of
Almost close
Almost close
When I'm wiping off my makeup and the façade fades back
Back to
You know, people will settle for anything just to say they have something
Just to feel like they have something
And it kind of made me sick in a weird way
Do you know what I mean about almost close?
Almost close
Just far away enough that loving you was dying to me
Almost close
You know, I sang these songs when I was 16 or 17
I dropped out of school for it
I walked in off white rooms for it
Thank you for making it all worth it
And now I'm 19, still unwanted
And clutching onto these songs for dear life
When they're the only thing I have anymore
When the only thing you have are these songs, the feeling changes
When the only thing you actually have are these songs, the feeling changes
When the only thing you actually have isn't tangible, shit changes
When the only thing you actually have isn't even tangible, this shit changes
Almost close
Further and further and further and further apart
Getting closer and closer and closer to just being spare parts
When the only thing you actually have isn't even tangible, shit changes