Doors

I grew up pretending sticks were little guns
I would point 'em at my dad and he'd get mad
'Cause God forbid I hurt someone
I'd hurt anyone I could
Anyone who got too close and anyone who wouldn't look
I was born into a one-hundred-year storm
Foot of ice across Vermont, and in that dark
And in that frost a heart was formed
Malcontented and unwarm
You were unsuspecting, not unwarned
That I'm the trouble ahead
That I scream in my sleep
You're putting money on red, I'm a sure bet at a losing streak
I keep showing you doors, but you can't open them up
'Cause it gets harder to see me the closer you try to look
I just live here, babe, but you're the one who decided to knock
And you knocked
Have you ever stared directly at the sun?
Have you ever shared some closeness
So exposed, to have it spit back by someone?
So forgive me if I jump
At the rattle of your keys, "Oh, are you leaving?"
"No, babe, I'm just waking up"
And now what?
I'm left staring at the ceiling
Listing reasons you should pack all your shit up
That I'm the trouble ahead
And I scream in my sleep
You're putting money on red, I'm a sure bet at a losing streak
I keep showing you doors, but you can't open them up
'Cause it gets harder to see me the closer you try to look
I just live here, babe, but you're the one who decided to knock
You knocked
I'll be gone so long before the anger comes
I'll be only what you've known of me 'til now
Oh, how I hope you're moving on
'Cause I'm the trouble ahead
And I scream in my sleep
You're putting money on red, I'm a sure bet at a losing streak
I keep showing you doors, but you can't open them up
'Cause it gets harder to see me the closer you try to look
I just live here, babe, but you're the one
I just live here, babe, but you're the one
I just live here, babe, but you're the one