i wish you cheated

I'm anxious, kinda sad
Hard to be your best when you lost the best you had
Spending days just on my phone
Wondering where it all went wrong
I'm nervous, pretty wired
I said your name too much now my lungs got tired
Thinking maybe I'm to blame
I just need someone to hate
Oh-oh-oh, you made this so damn hard for me
You and your goddamn honesty
It got me thinking
I wish you would've cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving
I wish you were the villain
A psycho with no feelings
So how do I move on
When you did nothing wrong? (Ah-ah-ah)
Wish you did something wrong (ah-ah-ah)
But you did nothing wrong
I know it's messed up, kinda bad
But I wish we didn't talk, and you just left like that
I'd be angry instead of numb
Dammit, who have I become?
Oh-oh-oh, you made this so damn hard for me
You and your goddamn honesty
It got me thinking
I wish you woulda cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving
I wish you were the villain
A psycho with no feelings
So how do I move on
When you did nothing wrong? (Ah-ah-ah)
Wish you did something wrong (ah-ah-ah)
But you did nothing wrong
In the middle of the night
I start to fantasise that you would ruin my whole life, oh
'Cause you're the best I had
And I keep running back like a goddamn fool, tryna change your mind
You were all mine
Can't believe I
Wish you woulda cheated
And smashed my heart to pieces
I wish I had a reason I could hate your guts for leaving
I wish you were the villain
A psycho with no feelings
So how do I move on
When you did nothing wrong?