revisited

Here we go
I like you, Neil. I like you so much
When I really, really like someone
There's a way l show them how I feel
Shhh
I've made up my mind
I've let it go
Too many times
I
And the drugs you take are never enough (Oh, I)
And the drugs you make are never enough (Oh, I)
And the drugs you take are never enough (Oh, I)
And the drugs you make are never enough (I)
Rape me
Your suicide can't take me
Could have felt so nice
Don't make me if you feel too sore tonight
'Cause it's just about the time
For you to stain the floors in white
I lie
Vacantly, that slab of meat
That bloody taste, so violently
Alright, alright
I'll shut my eyes and open wide
I'll swallow whole your sour wine
That sickle cell that says you're mine
My bread of God, some family friend
The choice is yours to live with it
You'll find it down between your legs
When I touch you there, you seem to flinch
Castrated boy, you will take it
You'll strip your clothes and live with it
You'll live with it
You'll live with it
You'll live with it
You'll live with it
God knows I've wronged
Took many of my friends
And traded 'em for drugs
I know I'm lost
But it's been better just to sin
'Cause it's to start up once again
And your arm and his skin
Who's to say I know myself
When I've forgotten how to live
With his love, with your hate
Leave the vice on the couch
So you can shoot it in our veins
Hold somebody close
'Cause I want to know
Just once again
The taste of his lips
Read the words of all the pages you ripped out, oh
I skimmed the lines and saw your legs about to give in
Could have helped you, the voice that calls you is ready, oh
If you could hold me, I'd make a memory of your skin
And you know it's true
My baby, something I'd do
If you could see me tonight
We'd make it work this time
My baby, you'll always be mine
Oh God, did you really have to hurt me so bad?
Waste of breath encoded in braille
You're mangled to bits inside
Your pale brown eyes
We found some lie
And lovely nights
When lost in time
Along those lines of pearly white
I stare so long, forgot to cry
It's not your fault you lived this life
It's not your fault you lived this life
Know you're shining solid gold
The way she used to touch you
Made you feel so old
Run your thumb across its surface tension
To relive it all
Oh my god, it never felt so wrong
Oh my god, it never felt so wrong
Oh my god, it never felt so wrong
Oh my god, it never felt so wrong
It never felt so wrong
Rip some holes
Stretch away the dirt
Wash that fool
Then you'll know it works
Touch it 'til it burns
Touch it 'til it burns
Touch it 'til it hurts
Touch it 'til it works
Touch it 'til it works
Touch it 'til it burns
Touch it 'til it hurts
Touch it 'til it works
Oh my god
Worn, so torn
Begone those measly words
And talk of something more
Leak out the reddish blush
Once I'm high, I'll entourage
That little sting to fuck me up
I love you more, abort your God
The feeling's ill, the rape was wrong
I know my worth, a special place
That feeling stings, it goes away
But not for long, it's staying shut
The drug I feel I wouldn't want
AHHHHH